From The Daily Dialogue
From The Daily Dialogue
Broadcast of 11/29/98
Subject: [DailyDialogue #333] Ingesting Love
"Ivan took some bread and set out for the place she had described... He returned with the egg to the old woman. A few days later came the old woman's birthday; she invited the Maiden Tsar (Maiden King)...and to the Maiden Tsar she served the egg that Ivan had found. The Maiden Tsar ate of it and at once conceived a passionate love for Ivan, the merchant's son. The old woman brought him out of his hiding place. How much joy there was...they married and began to live happily and to prosper." - From the story of the Maiden King
What does it mean to ingest the love of another? If we are angry because of past hurt, we can not take in the nurturing that gives us life. If we absorb the love of another, we take them into our inner being, we give them our attention wholly.
Before Marty and I got married, I spent the night at a hot springs retreat center. I paid for a one hour hydrotherapy and herbal sheet wrap session. The male massage therapist asked if I wanted my arms inside or outside the sheet. He said it was a more healing experience with the former method and whatever way I chose, he would adjust the sheet if changed my mind later.
I chose the full wrap and soon found it very confining and scary. I asked to have my arms released and he suggested that I keep them inside the sheet while he fed me cold water through a straw. I had a horrible feeling of being wrapped like a mummy, sweating to death. I became very angry at him for betraying my trust which I generalized to my anger towards all men. That evening was spent journaling and forgiving all the men I thought had not loved me, throughout my life. It was then that I fully desired to taste the flavor of Marty's love and to love the masculine within me.
I was reminded that just before attracting Marty, my consciousness was transformed by a guided meditation in which I experienced an inner marriage of my masculine and feminine. In the words of Marion Woodman, the inner marriage makes the outer marriage possible. I no longer feared men or idealized them. I was prepared to live happily ever after in a commitment to the inner work, together with Marty, knowing that this would continually transform me.
Experiment: How androgynous is your consciousness? Dialogue about the union of your masculine and feminine in an inner marriage.
Affirmation: I am fully alive with a passionate love as I absorb the Divine feminine and masculine though every cell of my being.
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